My 30th birthday was spent at work, managing the final piece of a collaborative effort. I was in bed by 7pm, besides my co-workers getting me "Watch the throne" the new Jay Z/Kanye West album and going to Mexico a couple of days later it was a tad boring. Then it hit me I am still not married, oh #### I thought. How come? Why? Most of my boys refer to me as the "runaway groom", as I have been close to being married, not that I sent out invitations for a wedding but I have picked out colors and some of the crazy #### women expect you to want to do when planning a wedding but that I find insane. So why am I not married? Am I scared? Do I want to just be alone? All of those questions I ask myself and say no! The only thing I am scared of is the moon crashing into the earth. I have dated some spectacular women, many of them are married or are about to be, so if it wasn't the women it's me right? ###% no it isn't me. I just don't want to settle and despite dating awesome and fabulous women they just were not for me they were for someone not me though. I feel as though society has made me jaded to the prospect of getting married just because I am a certain age, I want to get married but it has to be all meant to be I guess. However being over 30 I feel the clock ticking and there is an unspoken pressure from my awesome mother as well. I know men and women get all freaked out as soon as the bell tolls 30. Don't be, it's fine better to be freaked out than pissed you married the wrong person. I am a believer that if it is meant to be it will be. If your over 30 and are saying "oh ####" like I did 3 years chill out your good this is how your life is supposed to play out. Just be happy with the way your life is and the right person will come along. I think.... -thegqlife
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